Reminiscing on my younger days
"If you can't love yourself, you can't do anything else."
What was younger Simran like? Well, I was definitely different. I was introverted, extremely shy, self-conscious, an outsider in my friendship group, anxious, a deep-thinker, and always lost (but kind of happy) in my own little world. I was that kid who would never, EVER, raise their hand to answer a question, would avoid eye contact with teachers, and break out into a sweat each time I had to answer a question in class. At home, I was quiet too, spending a lot of my time after school playing games online or studying as the study-freak I am. That was my little world, where I was content, but not always happy.
I wouldn't say that I am a completely different person now altogether because I still am pretty introverted, shy at times, anxious and a very deep thinker, but I'm happier about myself than I used to be back then. Wow, how different my life would have been if BTS had been around back then! For anybody who doesn't know, BTS are a K-pop band, who sing a lot of empowering songs for their fans, all about mental health, goals, the future, and emotions that our generation face - all in all, their music has helped me a lot in the past year (please check them out), and the quote at the beginning of this post was said by one of the members. Anyway, back to the topic. I didn't know who I was back then, what I liked or disliked, what kind of path I would like to take as an adult, etc. I'm sure that if 15-year-old Simran knew that she would set up a blog, a self-care page on Instagram, and a YouTube channel, she would burst out into tears. It's moments like this that show me how far I have come, and how far I have yet to go.
Childhood and days of our youth, are something that we either love or hate. For me, it's a bit of both, my childhood was bittersweet, filled with highs and lows, but looking back at myself, I feel an immense sense of pride for myself. A lost girl, sat in her room, listening to Taylor Swift on repeat, on edge, scared to fully speak up in front of her friends, who felt so 'ugly' all the time, is now doing great, no matter what her mind tells her from time to time. The famous quote, 'you grow through what you go through', comes to mind right about now, because if I had not been through those feelings as a child/teenager, I certainly would not have been the person I am today. I took those experiences and grew from them in every way I could, and now I can say that I am not the person I was ten years ago, I am stronger, better, beautiful, and more in love with myself each day.
I had no idea what to write in my blog post today, but for some reason my childhood came to mind, and I really hope you enjoyed getting to know me a little better, and maybe this is a chance for you to recognise how far you've come. Whatever it made you feel, I am sending you a virtual hug today, see you next time!
Stay safe and take care.